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[cruelwonder]

[His eye. Oh God. She inhales sharply and closes her eyes tightly, moving to hold him a little better so he can rest against her and hide himself. She sets her chin on his head.]

God. I'm... I'm so sorry. That disgusting, horrid excuse for a person--

[She will kill Roman Sionis if she ever meets him. She will.

She lowers her voice to a whisper.]

You didn't have a choice, Jack. You didn't. I would have... I would have wanted to die too, if that had been the case...

[allucinator]

[He nods, his hands still to his face. He can still taste him, and that makes a shudder run through him.]

And I can't stop thinkin' about it, but what do that make me if I can't even remember it? I-- I shouldn't keep runnin', I should face it and I should just deal with it, but I can't even eat no more.

[cruelwonder]

Anyone else would do the same. There... There are some things people should never experience and never have to live with, Jack. This... This is one of them.

[allucinator]

[He shakes his head again, falling silent.]

I don't know. I don't . . . he probably won't even do it. I don't know. Maybe I'll-- I'll ask him and I'll see if he even will.

[cruelwonder]

[She pauses.]

...Ask who?

[allucinator]

[He gives a rough laugh and pulls away, pushing his hair away from his face.]

Sorry. I forgot . . . Sirius. He can erase memories. He-- he did it last time. That's what made me blind, that's the spell he was tryin'. He was messin' around with me Edelweiss memories-- he's done it before-- but it backfired that time, and now he probably won't dare do it again.

[cruelwonder]

[She frowns, looking over at Sirius and then back at him.]

Is that...what you really want to do?

[allucinator]

I don't know.

[It's not snappish, but rather anguished.]

Christ, I don't . . . half o' me don't even care, I'll take blindness over these memories, but hell, Alice, it was bad enough once.

[cruelwonder]

[She nods, understanding. And then she leans forward and kisses his forehead.]

I know. Perhaps... Perhaps it'll work this time.

[allucinator]

[He sighs and nods, lying down, resting his head in her lap.]

Sorry. Didn't mean to-- to yell at you.

[cruelwonder]

[She lets him get comfortable before she starts stroking back his hair.]

You didn't hurt me. I think it's quite impossible for you to by now.

[allucinator]

And thank Christ for that.

[A long pause.]

I love you.

[cruelwonder]

Mm.

[Very well said. She dips her head to kiss his hair.]

I love you too, Jack. I'm so happy to have you back with me. With us.

[allucinator]

Glad to be back, darlin'.

I think . . . I'm gonna sleep a bit. You-- you gonna stay?

[cruelwonder]

[She nods.]

Of course. I'll be right here with you.

[She's not leaving his side anytime soon.]