I've been mad too much. I don't want to go back to that. Not again.

[His breathing is ragged, too quick and too harsh.]

I went in my head-- I tried to, but he just-- he dragged me back out again, I couldn't ignore it, I never did that much pain in one go before and I wanted-- I wanted it to end any way it could, I begged him to kill me just to stop it. I thought I'd be there forever, I thought I'd never leave.